September 30, 2011

another realization

label: haven — CV @ 3:46 PM

I am beyond weird on my pursuit for solutions. I don’t know anyone else who gets her car diagnozed based on video (simultaneously in two countries).

Actually it doesn’t matter how, but at least I have a solution to my problem. Hope it works out as planned.

September 27, 2011

another morning

label: haven — CV @ 7:30 AM

Golden.

Trainride to work with Henri Salvador in my headphones through Autumn landscape painted by sun and rising fog. Golden.

September 23, 2011

meeting fall

label: haven — CV @ 9:20 AM

Autumn officially started this morning 09:04.

Fall is here! Fall is here!

Colours! Hot tea and sound of rain! Easy breathing! Chilly mornings! Peaceful, nostalgic, melancholic. Warm cozy plaid and a book! Soul time.
UPDATE: And fog!!! How did I forget that magical painting tool remaking all those familiar views you thought you think you know so well? Fog and misty rain!

I took a day off yesterday. I have worked so many extra hours this month, that even after day off yesterday, I still have hours left to take one more day off (and few hours on top of that). I really needed a day off. Away from internet, away from thoughts of work and away from my own home. I am overworked and stressed and I needed to clear my head. My special somebody had a seminar in Sastamala, so I joined him. He was inside all day listening to smart people talk and I was wondering around Karkku and Vammala the whole day meeting up with him late at night when I picked him up after sauna.

Whoa! Sastamala (Vammala and Karkku and Ellivuori to be exact) is beautiful. Hills and valleys and river (more like a lake) and fairy tale houses and churches. I got soaked by rain, I got ruffled by winds, I got cheered up by sunshine, I got energized by fresh air, I got dazed by breathtaking views, I got smarter by guided history tours – I got a real day off. Copacetic*!

* I hope this is it prof.?! You got your word now and I can go on with my blogging without frantically looking for a new usable and different word for you any more :) That “copacetic” should do it.

September 20, 2011

another morning

label: haven — CV @ 7:52 AM

Nothing is ever easy.

Today is the morning when I can’t see any silver lining. Isn’t it supposed to be that when the door closes a window opens? I am tired of closing doors. I know I just have to loosen my grip again and let go, but I don’t want to let go from another thing. I really, really like my current job and employer, but my temporary contract probably ends when it was due to end. That nice setup for Canada is backfiring in every way possible.

It feels like all my worst fears are coming true. Single unemployed mother in foreign country without any safetynet or support system. Yeah, the plans are that I am not that single by the end of next February, but plans are plans and all kind of things can happen in next 5 months. During those last 3 years all kind of plans with my special somebody have gone astray.

Everything is good for something. Right?

September 19, 2011

another moment

label: haven — CV @ 6:29 PM

The clouds are having a speeding race in the sky. The fall has come.

I was standing on my balcony, looking at the rushing sky and asking myself “Am I having a speeding race against my child?”. Am I?

September 17, 2011

another spark

label: haven — CV @ 12:55 PM

Saturday. Yesh!

PS.I’m not dead, I’m just busy and tired.

September 2, 2011

another realization

label: haven — CV @ 7:36 AM

I’ve never been as close to anyone as I am to my special somebody. I’ve never let anyone to come that close. It doesn’t make me uneasy or scared. Never has. It has only made me sad from time to time when I’ve planned to leave* him. Sometimes it feels unreal because I never thought that it is possible to be that connected to anyone. I hope it is a good thing as one can only hope.

… and I just realized that it has been 3 years this week since we met (not started dating, don’t get me wrong). Has it really been that long?

UPDATE: Hahaa. Or maybe those are just my hormones talking. LOL All might be!

* I’ve never wanted to leave him because of what or who he is, merely because life goes the way it does.

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