March 25, 2012

another about Ayra

label: haven — CV @ 6:07 PM

Ayra has papers! Yesh!!! Estonia here we come :) Fantastic! Uncle and aunts and grandma and all the other perks of family. Me time for me and quality time for Ayra with gran. Tickets for Tuesday – check!

March 20, 2012

another about Ayra

label: haven — CV @ 9:18 PM

Do I have a difficult baby or am I experiencing it out of proportion? Am I on the edge of breakdown, because I am doing it all alone and all the other stress factors are extremely high at the moment or is she really that strenuous? Like with most of the things in my life – I wonder: is it real or am I imagining it? What is real anyway? My reality is the way I see/feel/experience things regardless.

Enough of whining. Right now I thank iPhone and White Noise App for this breather. Back to “war”.

March 18, 2012

another morning

label: haven — CV @ 9:48 AM

I am sitting in the sun on my balcony drinking coffee. Ayra is sleeping next to me. It is a wonderful morning – peaceful and happy.

March 15, 2012

another moment

label: haven — CV @ 4:46 PM

Rocking back and forth with a chair. Ayra is so-so quiet in my arms. A moment of total balance.

… and then the moment passed.

March 12, 2012

another TED

label: haven — CV @ 1:03 PM

Getting one of the best laughs on a serious topic.

another about Ayra

label: haven — CV @ 11:42 AM

According to Ayra all you need for happiness is to lay in the sun spot in the middle of the floor on a sheepskin buck-naked. Simple!

March 10, 2012

another lesson

label: haven — CV @ 7:52 PM

Never ever piss off your upstairs neighbour. They have so many more ways to get back at you and be vindictive.

I hope my downstairs neighbour learned his lesson today. If not – his life will be hell as long as I live here. I am done being nice. If he is stupid enough not to understand that babies don’t have on/off switch – he shall hear me walking really load, moving everything in the loudest way and the sound of stuff hitting the floor. He thought that yelling up the ventilation shaft to shut Ayra up was a good idea. I turned my cutlery drawer upside down to the floor as an answer. F***ing moron!

label: haven — CV @ 11:43 AM

Today feels exactly like this Kareva’s poem.


Isa ja ema on leppinud jälle.
Väljas on laupäev ja tilguvad räästad.
Istun ja vahin ja mõtlen vist talle.
Nagu saaks mina siis kedagi päästa.

Vaibad on kortsus ja segi on sahtlid.
Keemia kontrolltöö keeratud käkru.
Köögi pool lõhnavad vasttehtud vahvlid.
Istun ja põrnitsen endale näkku.

Väljas on laupäev ja tilguvad räästad.
Mida ma vahin. et välja ei lähe.
Kedagi hoida või kaitsta või päästa.
Sõnu on palju ja suutmist on vähe.

March 8, 2012

another morning

label: haven — CV @ 8:06 AM

I heard/saw* Francis Goya playing Valgre this morning. Superb!

* as did all who watched Terevisioon

UPDATE: While writing this post I found out that Francis Goya has recorded an album of Valgres songs. I have to get it!

March 7, 2012

another about Ayra

label: haven — CV @ 11:22 PM

How do you dress a child when it is -15ºC when you put her outside to sleep and -5ºC when she’s done with sleeping 3 hours later? Or when it is -2ºC at the beginning and -10ºC later? March!

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