September 27, 2015

freaky me

label: still here — CV @ 1:59 PM

I would have expected anything. I could think anything else, but not that.

He actually does not like me.

7 years later and he only now finds out/tells me – that he doesn’t like my essence. He probably liked the idea of me, but he never realised that he doesn’t want to be in a relationship with a person like me. How many people got hurt on the way, how much time wasted, how many tears were shed, so he could tell me, that he can’t take my honesty and frankness, because it offends him?

And I never pretended to be anything else. Anything better.

I do not understand people. I think I am a freak. I just do not get this world and people in it any more.

Whatever. My favourite word of late. Whatever. To remind me that those things do not matter any more. I can’t change it, I have to accept it.

A bottle of wine and a friend would be nice in this god forsaken place in the middle of nowhere.

There is going to be a lot of ranting in this blog in months to come. Or a total silence.

EDIT: How can I come in terms with Ayra not growing up with her father only just because I am me? Not that there was absence of love or anything. Just because I am not acceptable.

3 impressions

  1. ouch.. pai-pai-pai ja kallid Sulle!

    Impressed by pilleriin — September 28, 2015 @ 9:12 AM

  2. How can Ayra come to terms with her not growing up with her father only just because he is him? Not that there was absence of love or anything. Just because he is unaccepting of how people are.

    Impressed by Prof. — October 8, 2015 @ 11:29 AM

  3. Some part of me wants to argue with you Prof. He is not bad. I can’t see Him as a bad person. I just can’t.

    Impressed by CV — October 12, 2015 @ 9:23 PM


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