September 15, 2016

I will

label: still here — CV @ 5:23 PM

Up and down, up and down, black and white, black and white. Rollercoaster all the time. Can I please just exist for a moment? Have a closure with the old and then have a still moment before I move forward?

Stuck in panic attacks. Banging my head against the wall of misunderstandings and miscommunications. Feeling lonely and neglected in every way possible. I have cried for the whole lifetime worth of tears by now. I have cried for all the years I was the “tough girl”. I think I have paid for each wrongdoing in this lifetime and some in advance.

I want closure. I want to move forward. I want … I want peace. I want my head to clear. I want … I will.

4 impressions

  1. I will on parem kui I want. aga tegelikult ka sellega lükkad oma soovid tulevikku. et siis pigem I am, I do. aga see võib oodata muidugi veel, I will on alustuseks väga hea :)

    Impressed by pilleriin — September 15, 2016 @ 7:06 PM

  2. Aga tegelikult ei ole küsimus kas tahan, saan või olen, vaid hoopiski aru saamises, kus see sihtpunkt on,kuhupoole ma liigun, sest seni ma olen lihtsalt ringiratast kohapeal tammunud.

    Impressed by CV — September 16, 2016 @ 9:15 AM

  3. Tule meile külla, saad tavarutiinist natukeseks välja.

    Impressed by Pirts — September 19, 2016 @ 7:44 AM

  4. Tulen, tulen! Ma helistan Sulle sel nädalal.

    Impressed by CV — September 19, 2016 @ 11:05 AM


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