2010
Happy new year! I has to be better, because it is pretty hard to manage worse than last. I believe in better.
January 1, 2010
December 31, 2009
another realization
When it comes to choosing - I never get picked. I wonder why.
It will be blue moon tonight. Work your magic witch!
December 29, 2009
clue
Actually I am not so clueless.
Fear drives us. Always. That is it. Nothing new and no surprises.
Fear to make decision.
Fear to stick to a decision.
Fear to see things through.
Fear to take responsibility.
Fear or no fear. I dread a lot of things, but I still prefer to be on driver seat for my life. I’ve made some really bad decisions in life and more than once I have wanted to run, but I didn’t. I rather face fear and do stuff despite of it. Acknowledge and move on.
Decisions should not be based on fear. They should be reached considering. Yet, we are run by our fears.
December 28, 2009
clueless
I don’t know how, but it I manage to bring the worst out of every man I meet. Even from the best of them.
It all doesn’t make sense.
December 26, 2009
December 24, 2009
Merry Christmas :)
Merry Christmas everybody!
Had myself a merry little Christmas. It isn’t hard at all! I haven’t made myself Christmas before. It was the first.
Woke up this morning at 8 and headed out to find a Christmas tree. Fir branches to be exact because I have a vase for them. Found my fir branches and Christmas decorations (I didn’t have any at all). Back at home finished up with tiding, packed gifts, decorated the tree substitute and started cooking. My full Estonian Christmas dinner was ready in less than 2 hours. I even baked 3 loads of gingerbread cookies during that time.
Dinner was delicious! I didn’t mess up a thing this time. A big thanks to my uncle’s wife for her home made sauerkraut that was a big part of that success. Then had mulled wine and watched “Kevade”. It isn’t so bad to be alone for Christmas.
Ou, on top of it all I also managed to get my “tree” in fire. So that is done and out of the way for years to come.
December 23, 2009
another test
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Your Power Color Is Lime Green |
 At Your Highest: You are adventurous, witty, and a visionary. At Your Lowest: You feel misunderstood, like you don’t fit in. In Love: You have a tough exterior but can be very dedicated. How You’re Attractive: Your self-awareness and confidence lights up a room. Your Eternal Question: “What else do I need in my life?” |
December 18, 2009
another morning
I was warming my car and saw something picketing down from a roof of a building. A magpie! A wintery magpie :)
A wintery magpie is a funny sight. A ball of feathers and long slim tail. Like a lollipop. Black and white one. The funniest sight is when it took off - feathers in and takeoff.
December 17, 2009
no magic
It is snowing. Fairy tale big flakes of snow. Why it doesn’t work its magic any more?
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