Vaike Õiglane

I wish I would win the lottery so I could go back to school. I hate even thinking of going back to studies while working. I would benefit so much more from studying now, older and wiser. I would love to have the luxury to concentrate on studies only.

My restlessness got the better of me. As soon as I get out of here - I am heading east for this time. I was not supposed to go anywhere this weekend, but … right now sitting in one place is also not an option. If I would stay at home, I would probably drink too much. I better go. I better run again.

Label on my skirt says:”Take me home. Wear me out.”. Nice!

PS. This label was really small and inside the skirt. I have had this skirt for years and this is the first time I noticed it.

It feels weird. I don’t have to rush anything into this week. I am not going anywhere this friday.

Midsummer few years ago. A girl walking up to me and greeting me with the most bizarre of announcements. She was stating to be my partners partner.

Around midsummer a year later. Another girl sending me an SMS about how she just went to see an apartment she and my partner are planning to live in.

I don’t know why I suddenly remembered it, but I still wonder what is wrong with those girls. Why? What did it give to make announcements like that?

If I hear one more time someone telling me not to get a Velocity - I just buy it for all the wrong reasons. I only mention it on a list of canopies I want to try. I haven’t even decided anything yet! Nothing at all as I want to testjump all the different options before I make any decisions, but yeah … everybody knows that “you can’t consider anything, buy that”. Wtf? I thought that reasonable is to actually think things through, test, get to know all the options. Total “what do I know?!” moment*. Pretty much all my decisions until now have been misguided as well. Thank you!*

* Should or should I not translate the irony? Nääh, smart ones get it themselves.

What was that I wrote about not so long ago?

Yeah, exactly. So I forgot myself today as I am excited to go to Poland next week. Different event. Something new to experience. I was totally carried away talking about aircrafts and expectations and what organizers have told about last year experience. Excited!

And yet …. all of a sudden I found myself answering questions about my financial status again. “How can you afford it?”! By working hard and having nothing! Pure willpower and desire to do it. Not even a single question about an event. Yes, I was talking to skydivers.

Anyway. I shut up again for a while.

Greyish than grey. Even the green of islets was grey. Raincloud seemed to be hugging the sea. Heavy sight. … but there was more. Light grey on the edges of a view made everything I saw picturesque, unreal.

Freaky! What is up with all that religiousness? I never get used to all finns being so christian and all. I had totally forgot that sunday mornings I will wake up to church bells. It is impossible to ignore them, when my windows are open, as they are so damn loud. I don’t live in the center of a city! I live at a small peaceful corner, but still no escape from chimes.

PS. Ou, I just remembered that I am supposed to go vote today. That will be interesting.

PPS. How the hell did I forgot to go to vote? I remembered that again today (monday) when I opened internet browser and it looked at me written by me. Demented me. Seriously. I am not that old yet! Or am I?

I hadn’t talk to prof. for ages! I really missed him. It was pretty surprising to hear him greeting me with “you’re still hoplessly in love”. It made me smile.