mind tricks
I can’t help but feeling “too little, too late”. It annoys the hell out of me. I want to shut it out. I want to … I want a lot of things … Why are we humans made like this? Never happy with what we got? Why can’t I be happy about it? I would have been … a year ago. Now I have to fight so I wouldn’t see it as tarnished, broken, sad, desperate … I don’t know if others can, but I can’t take old dreams, brush the dust off of them and want them again. The moment has gone. It feels wrong.
My mind is playing tricks with me. I feel like screaming and kicking without any reason. Restless. Unsatisfied. Angry. Why I am so angry and will I ever get over this anger?