Vaike Õiglane

I finally figured out what is wrong with Finnish coffee making. They make it as a mass production! I want individual approach. I like my coffee latte made especially for me.

Usually it is mission impossible to get decent coffee in Finland. It doesn’t matter if you drink your coffee black or white. They just don’t have decent coffee here. I go out of my way every day to get my coffee. Damn mass production. Coffee is a personalized drink!

I have really big problems with getting up every morning. There is nothing harder than waking up for me. It has always been like that.

I bought myself a new alarm clock. Sunday. I woke up monday morning an hour before the alarm went off. That testing didn’t go good. Today. I woke up 45 minutes before the alarm. Damn! What do I have to do so I would be able to test this alarm? When I need, I never wake up - when I am testing new alarm clock - I wake up before it.

Murphy my dear old friend again.

Pinkish brown colour of trees. Even evergreens are pinkish and that brings really well out the brown of the trunks. Sky is pale blue with almost white pinkish hem at the horizon. There are few fluffy clouds in the sky - magneta is the colour at the bottom of them. Crisp and fresh air.

Northern sunset.

… and yes. It takes longer than a moment.

Today is the first day in Visa Waiver Program between Estonia and USA. I already submitted my application and got the answer.

I can finally travel to USA! Yay!!!

JFTC here I come (and I will bankrupt myself in the process). Anyone for sponsoring? Please? Pretty please?

“Just living is not enough. One must have sunshine, freedom and a flower …”

H.C.Andersen

I had chosen sunday as the day when I sleep long. Guess what?! F***ing neighbour picked this morning for drilling. The noise is so great that I can’t even put the movie on to wallpaper my morning activities.

I am grumpy.

I went to a sex shop today. Looked at some vibrators.

Why the hell the packages of vibrators display cheap (sluttish) looking women? They remind me of bunnies with their fake fur hemline and appearance. Understandable (not approved!) is selling things to men in such fashion (and often with a lack of taste), but vibrators? Really? Are men the ones who buy vibrators? News flash to sex toy manufacturers! Women use vibrators more than men.

It is so me!

I am still unpacking boxes at my place. Today’s turn was … jewelry. Found the engagement ring. The one which proposal I never said “yes” to. It is beautiful. Almost perfect for my liking (and it is hard to find a piece of jewelry that I like). I used to wear it for years … as a reminder how wrong everything can go.

Since he called the meeting off I have been waiting. Just hoping that he will make the effort and call that he will come. Or e-mail. No, he broke the contact again. So things will stay the way they were and are. Time eases everything. In some ways it has become easier, but it still is in the back of my mind.

Question. Why?

This time I lost … again. And I can’t even learn from my mistake as I don’t know what was the mistake.